All the Shapes (Why I Chose CGA)
Heya friends! Welcome to my first ever CGA blog! This is the place where I’ll be posting before and during my 5 months at the Center for Global Action (CGA)! I will do my best to post at least once a week during CGA, but a little more sporadically before I actually attend! If you did not already know, CGA is a 5 month discipleship program run my Adventure in Missions, the organization that created the World Race. CGA will be a time of building up what the Lord tore down in me on the Race, and a time to really just solidify my identity in him. I will be learning about leading a team on the field during this time as well! To actually attend CGA, I am fundraising once again and you can donate at the top of this page! Anyways, let’s get on to the why!
I gained a lot of things that I find valuable of the Race. These include things like community, feedback, accountability, and people that want to see me grow. When I heard about CGA, I knew that this was a place where I could have those things. Honestly at the time it was the easy way out; it was a place where all the things I wanted were already pre-constructed, I didn’t have to fight for any of it. I mean, I most definitely felt the Lord calling me there, but the ease of it all made the choice so much easier.
During a re-entry training last week called Project Searchlight, I had the chance to meet the staffers that run CGA. I had the opportunity to hear the heart behind the program, as well as learn about what I will actually be doing in my time there. It all blew me away. The people, the vision, and just the passion of it all was so real! It could only be a place that was chasing relentlessly after the Lord, and I wanted to be there. It stirred my heart, helped pull me out of a dryness I’ve been feeling since I returned from the Race. It was a place that made me feel alive.
I had a realization that helped put this all in perspective yesterday, all in the form of children’s block and toys. Before I left for the World Race I was a nice, red circle, and I fit nicely into my circle sized hole. During the Race I was transformed into a green square, and I fit perfectly into my square sized home. Upon returning home I felt increasingly frustrated with the people around me; see they were trying to put my square sized self into my old circle hole, I just didn’t fit! Could they not see that? Also at this time I was increasingly frustrated with myself; I just could not get myself together, and I could not understand why! Upon getting to PSL, I felt like I finally fit. I felt like myself! I thought it was all the people around me that made me fit so well, and they definitely helped, but it was more than that. I realized that upon returning home I changed shapes once again, I was now a orange hexagon (my new favorite shape).
After visiting CGA and returning home, I see now that it is the place where I fit the best. It’s a space that nurtures what I’m chasing after. It will be a place that pushed me harder than I ever was on the Race. I see it as an opportunity to grow even more than I could imagine, and I want to be pushed that hard. To be honest I want to fail, I want that experience that is to much for me. I want those moments where I have nothing else to hold on to except the Lord. I can see the ways where I need to grow as a leader, and CGA is the best place to sculpt me into that. This is why I chose CGA.
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Love and blessings,
Tucker Stevens
